Wednesday, September 27, 2006

CHANT A PSALM

I was animating for about a week because my mac mini kept malfunctioning... My mom has been supporting me alot telling me to save my work and to keep on going... I realised thats what seperates an animator from a normal artist, absolute patience, focus and determination.. I mean an artist may have these qualities but animators just have it really hard they have to do all those frames... I've become a slave for motion right now and I plan on making cell movies where I would coreograph fight scenes or some thing like that and take stills and create a short film. Flash animation is cool and I admit I am still learning and there is alot to learn, but I strongly want to move on to clay-mation (stop motion) but I will need to cast voices and build settings and stuff like that.. this is something that will take alot of time, but I'm willing to try. Still procrastinating where SATs are concerned, I need to call and find out info.. I will be going for piercings today, by the way and hmmm well going to the movies this weekend. I am growing a ras and soon I will be joining Marlins waterpolo club I will be quitting my old club (Royhil Seals) <<< Etoli and Emersunna has added me to his friends list his photos are mad sick and have inspired me alot and If your reading this thank you alot for all that you have posted!

Remember when you are down CHant a Psalm! :D



David Dread from Steel Pulse... I went to see them last night @ club Zen they were great!
Hmm...update
Currently I'm listening to some downtempo house and just chilling.. thats the problem I havent been doing much solid stuff... I need to get organised.. I'm supposed to be piercing my ears today.. last night I saw lucky number slevin and multiple episodes of lucky number slevin am I enjoying myself too much..I think I really need to settle down and get organised...

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Update on aMorle
Days as a Rebel Artist

Well today was a pretty normal day, for the entire week I was contemplating If I wasted time or not.. alot of things flew through my head, I guess right now I'm just looking for exposure I need people to know my name in the art world... I got a couple calls from people asking to do work, I also feel as if I am being given jobs cause the people are feeling sorry for me... Another thing is, I guess I am leaving the country in 2008 because I just realised that you have to do your SATs a year prior to the year you would like to leave... I'm not complaining cause' I have more time to study... and I get to stay here longer...
The girl I liked, we fell out. I dont see her as a potential anymore, I realised she's not special, different or unique from the rest...shes just a typical single girl these days... a bitch! I lost my ambition for commitment. its not that important to me anymore.. Im going to pierce my ears next week (hopefully if my lazy father agrees) but this Sunday is his party and hes kinda busy so I'm giving him a break, because I know all about promotion...and the stress that comes with it. Look at the last post. My life story is like a beautiful struggle, My mother always said I work better under pressure, I guess she is right?! I dont know if I'm going clubbing this week cause I have to do some animations for Synergy and I'm pretty new to this shit. My plans are to do some more graf, make some stickers and stamps in my free time and plan for my pieces.. The script needs to be written as well for the graf movie we are doing...

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Life as it is…
Well right now I’m doing several freelance jobs and gaining experience. I have to get my hands on an SAT book pretty soon so I could start studying, also I’m looking to get some hardware for my Mac mini like more RAM and external hard-drive and an external DVD writer. I have a lot of blanks (I want to put them to use). I also want to get some of my work bound. And a business card printed. I have a lot of free times seeing that I’m not in school anymore. Its time for me to get some exposure in the field I want to get into. My car is working pretty fine minor repairs are being made very slowly but right now I’m planning to save for my Rebel XT, a Macbook, and a Motorolla L6. Sport wise I’m planning on changing clubs in Waterpolo because I am not comfortable with the club I am in right now. Yesterday I got a job with synergy and I’m planning to start back commissions with WHO graphics again, the summer experience was cool and I think I gained a lot and have a lot to gain.
Where love life is concerned, I m still single for like 10 months now after a gruesome break-up and I met this really special girl, who recently ended a relationship with a guy who she was in “love” with she’s still hurting inside so I’ll give her time. She also has exams and she lives pretty far, these factors all contribute to the reason I’m not in anything yet. I’ve learnt over the summer that you should ignore infatuation. I had a sort of summer relationship with this girl… but she told me upfront that she was just using me for fun. I don’t really look at her the same way now. My life has changed. I don’t really crave for a relationship and single life is doing just fine for me now, hopefully I may get a gf before I leave for SCAD but who knows…
A lot of people have been questioning my virginity…I may lose it as I am more liberal but I still think abstinence Is a priority in my life… My peers all tell me something is wrong with me as I’m going to be 18 this year and I haven’t scored as yet… but I really and seriously have absolutely no interest for that kind of thing right now. I know that while I’m in school in the GA I may not be able to help myself… Hey it’s a different world. I’ve been offered a couple times but turned it down every time... I think something really is wrong with me.
This vacation we threw a party called audio amphetamine at Club Blue Tantra it was my second party, luckily it did not buss… but it wasn’t a real good party…it was ok. Pictures can be viewed on http://www.diegodeviant.tk/
The Perfect World…
I am writing this from the point where I strongly believe it all started, a time when life was great! I was a relaxed person, and had an approach to life that was so different from others…however, it was very unfortunate that this life was shrouded by idealistic dreams and belief. I lived in an imaginary world, a movie, I lived the perfect, carefree life.
It was a hot day just like any other and I had just walked down the towering flight of stairs from my classroom and headed towards the forecourt… The forecourt was the coliseum, it was a huge circular, paved field, fenced in with a sturdy BRC fence and a stage on the uppermost circumference. This was the area where all my fellow schoolmates congregated. It was where games of “catch” would be played a game where an outcast was knighted the position of “it” and was forced to pace up to the “normal” children and catch them, by catching them he would be dethroned of this awkward position and redeemed as a normal person again… Although it was a child’s game it had very negative attributes, it taught children to single out people who were less capable than others. It is sad to see at such a young age we could stamp invalid on someone’s forehead. No thought was given to this because we were naïve. And it was just a simple game, it was subconscious, and we rarely took that attitude in real life situations anyway. We often came across students who seemed different but we always accepted them. And at the age where the slander would have been committed the school was very stern about it. It was nice going to a private primary school. It was more than just a school to me, it was a sanctuary, a place where I was loved and felt safe. I was among different genders and races, there was a balance. It was unlike a government school that deprived young boys of the opposite sex… although in reality those were the boys who knew more about girls than us. I never really took on girls until I wore big boy clothes, in my school you wore checkered clothes until standard 2. It wasn’t an obsession with girls or the need for sex but it was just mere infatuation.
I liked several girls but I never really took the time to start any relationship or anything like that, I wasn’t that important to me in any case if liked someone I wouldn’t have known what to do anyway. I knew about girls but I didn’t know about affection, I never kissed a girl or anything like that so I didn’t know. The first day of standard 2 was like any other first day. Children would come to school early and pick seats that was close to their friends soon enough to find out they had to be moved.
They would also be a lot of children opening their books and sniffing the newness out of them as it were some sort of flower, making strange comments such as “ahhh I love the smell of new book!” or “hmm I like this smell, nothing beats the smell of fresh book” Although It was weird as I look at it now, it was a firstday ritual to smell your books. The first day felt great because I had on my new clothes and I was upstairs, these were simple joys that a lot of people took for granted, being upstairs. I would reach home a sometimes meet my grandmother washing someone’s hair gossiping about politics or sharing strong critiques against a certain matter that eventually led to a government whether it be foreign or local. I would stay in the salon a while and pitch what I had to say or say nothing and head to my room put down my books and draw. That was my quiet time a time where I was able to create a world of my own, a world that I lived in, everything in which I drew was perfect, a world that people would die for.